Lost Love


This is so moving, I nearly cried. “The artist Marina Abramovic did a 2010 performance art piece at the Museum of Modern Art, where she sat in a chair, and, one by one, people could sit opposite her and look into her eyes. It was a powerful experience even with strangers, but then her former love Ulay arrived without her knowledge. This video shows the moment she sees him. Apparently they had had a passionate love affair back in the 70s, but when they felt the relationship was fizzling, they decided to walk the Great Wall of China, each from one end, meeting in the middle for a last hug and never seeing each other again. Here they are, meeting once again.” From A Cup of Jo.


Reduce PAIN through Vision Drills – my next journey

I know right, it’s WEIRD!

So I’m taking this workshop and seminar in April here in San Francisco called Z-Health Essentials of Elite Performance. I am nothing short of EXCITED. I have just heard so many great things about it from my colleagues and my company’s clients.

I’m all set and ready to go and I’ve been reading the study guide over and over. Here, I’m doing Visual Training. By the way, I’m doing it wrong here, but that little bit of circles REALLY feel good.

Eyesight And Vision Are not The same

In sports performance, it is IMPOSSIBLE to overstate just how vital superior vision is to excelling in sports. Great vision is one of the most important, if not the most important, differentiators of mid-level athletes from great performers in virtually every sport.

“Eyesight is simply the ability to see something clearly, the so-called 20/20 eyesight (as measured in a standard eye examination with a Snellen chart). Vision goes beyond eyesight and can best be defined as the understanding of what is seen. Vision involves the ability to take incoming visual information, process that information and obtain meaning from it.”– dr. donald Getz, od

In other words, 20/20 is not enough! Most coaches of athletes believe that if their player has “normal eyes” then that is enough to excel as an athlete. Nothing could be further from the truth! Normal 20/20 eyesight is only the beginning. Vision is a dynamic, powerful system that is often THE determining factor of athletic excellence.

An interesting fact is that if you have a problem with your vision, this can create a sensory mismatch for you and lead to PAIN. It’s kind of incredibly complex but the jist of it is if there is a mismatch or weakness of the eyes, it is possible to get injuries, poor posture and increased problems including but not limited motion sickness and what chiropracters call subluxations of the spine. Anyway, the exercise is great for someone like me, who has been staring at the computer all day and plans to beast it out at the gym tonight. Try it out for yourself.

Eye circles directions:

1.Stand in Neutral Stance or sit. Maintain a long spine

2.Hold a pencil or finger 12-16 inches away from your face.

3.Focus on the implement while moving it in a large circle – large enough to challenge your eye range of motion.

4.Do not move your head – only look with your eyes.

5.SLOWLY perform 1-3 circles, then switch directions for another 1-3 circles.

6.Recheck your head position throughout the drill, making sure it is still in neutral.

I never was interested in starting my own business

The thought of owning one and starting one up has NEVER, ever crossed my mind.

But I’ve been following Marie Forleo a lot these past couple of months and girl has me wanting to start one – just ’cause I can! Of what? I have NO idea — but when I do find something I’d like to start up, I’m definitely going for it. I like how she makes me feel empowered and if I really want to, I should go for it and just DO IT. Love that message. Not just for creating a business, but for creating a life you love (that’s her mantra). Super cute and sassy.

I just watch her videos just because. She’s hilarious!

5 Questions

1. What do I enjoy about this moment?
2. How can I help?
3. What can I learn from this?
4. How would I like it to happen next time?
5. What’s funny about this?

Thank you for what you provided. I appreciate it. It wasn’t meant to be. There’s a reason for everything. Please accept the best of wishes.

The future is bright, open and fresh.

How to live before you die.

It has been a rough couple of months for me, in so many ways – my relationship, my job, my future… everything… and it was all turmoiling within me. It is evident that I don’t know what I want in life and it is something I’m struggling with.

It has been a good long while since I’ve spent as much time as I have been spending lately with myself. More often than not, it’s been a little sad, lonely and nostalgic for the person who I used to be able to confide in and share everything with. I really miss you and I’m sorry I hurt you. I never wished we would end up like this. I hope we can be friends again in the future, and I wish you all the happiness in the world.

But my time to myself has also been eye-opening and really good for my soul. My yoga practice and the countless of miles I have been walking during the weekends has really allowed me to just THINK about the quality of my life and how to grow into a better person, an outstanding person. What I wish, what I hope and what I see for myself so that I could leave my impact on the world, or not even that, just LIVE a happy life – which could hopefully leave an impact on others’ lives. And instead of just dwelling on the fact that I don’t know what I want, I’m going to ACT on finding it out and NEVER settle on anything until it’s RIGHT for me. Just making that decision has significantly lifted weight and made me feel lighter. My first action is to follow this quote. I love it:

Spread love everywhere you go. Let no one ever come to you without leaving happier.

-Mother Teresa

On the first week of May, I’m taking the flagship program at Landmark Education. This is something I’ve decided to do for myself and my personal growth and I am really excited to experience it. These four 15-hour days are specifically designed to bring about positive and permanent shifts in the quality of your life. It’s a strong statement to tout, but it’s an experience I’m willing to invest in. I’m sick of being scared of doing something. I’m just going to do it.

From here on out, I’m getting rid of any negative energy I may have. There is no point to it. Like today, as made my way around the city, by being more conscious of why I might be feeling a certain way, I was really able to let go of any negative thoughts that entered my mind. I basically thought, “What is the point of harboring this feeling?” And if there was no point, I let it go. And I felt light.

I am just a girl, going with the flow of life. But I will never give up learning and searching so that I can be a better person.

Takedown: Week 1

Week 1 Stats 

Height: 5’1″

Initial Weight: 130.5 (I got to 125 during a good season, but the holidays ballooned me back to 130)

Current Weight: 127.3

Takedown Challengers have completed their first week on the challenge today and while I can’t speak for everyone else, I can say that for me, it has been AMAZING so far! I’ve lost three pounds, feel lighter, never bloated and I don’t need to hit snooze on my alarm clock 500 times. I wake up without feeling like I need more sleep and have more energy throughout the day. Which, for the last couple of months had been quite an issue for me.

I’m not actually sure why the Takedown Challenge is giving me more energy than usual because, when I started, I was already pretty much a clean eater – cooking my own meals, thinking about the lean protein, gravitating towards whole foods, drinking water, etc. But I suppose my problem was not the stuff I was consuming, but whenhow and how much I was consuming. I mean, you don’t need to be so strict when you are maintaining, but when you’re trying to lose weight, it’s important to take all things into consideration. I don’t think I ever got my portions right by myself and I was definitely not incorporating all nutrients needed for every meal. I’m thinking these small changes are what’s making me feel better and present.

Within the first couple of days on this challenge, I was feeling my body adjust itself to this style of eating.  It was kind of hard in the beginning and still is, especially from lunch time to snack time, but I’m determined to stick to it.

Like right now, I’m sipping on a cold black coffee, pretty hungry, and very much looking forward to my snack… And I keep looking at the clock… and it’s so close… yet so far.

Hopefully, it won’t be like this much longer once my body is “taught” to use my own body fat as an energy source.   I’m not sure, but we will see.

I love that I don’t have to think much about anything, just FOLLOW. So that is what I’ve been doing. Following a lot of instructions. I came into this pretty determined after thinking about it for a night when Kristen asked me if I wanted to do the challenge. I wasn’t too sure at first, but as I began to get everyone else ready for the challenge, the more I saw how great it looked and how I definitely wanted to try it! It looks like a sure thing, if you just stick to the plan. Plus, I want to lose these last 10-15 lbs that I haven’t been able to budge since my initial huge weight loss of 60 lbs back in 2010. And I run, and in order to run faster, I need to shed some weight.

Everything in this kit is awesome. I LOVE this sheet:

pack unit

I just pick however many units I’m alloted for that meal from each of these macro-nutrient ideas. It’s a lifesaver and totally tailored to me.

The recipes are also SOOO good. I made only two things from this week’s recipe book, but they were delicious.

The beginning of the Apple Pie Muffin:


And my meal prep for a day! Looks small, but that square container fits all of my lunch. Do-able!


Usually, the weekends are when I break a diet, but I feel pretty determined… so we’ll see how it goes! You live and you learn 🙂